Love you always, Hayley Bales. Miss you already.

I really regret all the times I wanted to show you love, but I held myself back. I should have heck cared the allergies, your smelly pee fur and just hugged you whenever I wanted to and let you slobber all over me whenever you wanted to. I really really regret not loving you the way I should have.

And I hate not being back home, going through all the hard parts, suffering together with my family. I feel unworthy, sitting here in a cocoon, emotionally numb and distant when I want so badly to cry over and miss my dogs the way I should.

I sincerely hope that all dogs go to heaven. So I can someday meet Shadow and Hayley again.