Today I realized something about myself that I don't really like.

I socialize only in settings where I feel in control. I discerned this about myself when Sab Ng declared she'd rather play a game than run. I said I'd much rather run alone (okay, maybe with a friend) than play a team game. Simply because I feel uncomfortable interacting with people when I feel inadequate.

I think I'm becoming too dependent on person(s) once again. That's a sure sign when you find yourself feeling aimless by yourself or when you feel thrown off course all day just by the way they treat you. Bad bad bad.